On Mother's Day 2008 I was admitted to the hospital after being pregnant with my first child for 9 LONG months. Josh and I had been married for 6 years and I was ready to start a family. If I only knew then what I know now!
I had a high risk pregnancy because I needed a cerclage at 25 weeks. Since Hailey had become sick I often think back to that day in 2008 that maybe that was my body's way of telling me I shouldn't be a mother, and I didn't listen because I wanted kids so badly, that I was being punished now some how.
Labor wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I mean yes, it hurt. More then any other pain I've ever felt. I was admitted at 7pm on the May 11th and Hailey was born at 10:20 am on the 12th. We were discharged on the morning of the 13th. It was kind of a whirl wind of events.
I remember her being born and the nurses doing all kinds of tests on her but in the end telling me I had a healthy little baby girl.
I instantly fell in love! When we brought Hailey home nothing was out of the ordinary. She slept and ate and slept. Just what a baby was suppose to do. Everybody LOVED her and came from all across the country to come see our new baby. I felt at that moment, I was meant to be her mother. I couldn't stop looking at her and taking pictures. I still haven't stopped with the pictures!
I remember thinking how lucky I was to be able to get to stay at home with my baby and also thinking that there was no way that I couldn't not stay home. I wanted to spend every minute with my baby. I wanted to do everything right. In the end I know I've made my share of mistakes and I'm in no way a perfect mother. I know that I always try to put Hailey's needs first and I try to go above and beyond to make sure she has the best days possible! That she gets what she needs. There is no one I think that deserves more then my daughter.
(This is my ALL time favorite picture of Hailey) I took this picture on an old cell phone and I've transferred it to every computer I've ever owned.
Today our daughter turns 6 years old and I am so happy with the person she has become. She is kind, generous, extremely friendly and she loves to LOVE. Her smile brings smiles. She waves and says hello to total strangers, She's a fighter, and she's brave. She can do things that I can not. She teaches me more then I will ever be able to teach her and I am beyond grateful for her!
The best mother's day present anyone could get!! Happy Birthday my beautiful baby girl. Yes you are MY baby even though you tell me you are a big girl now. Enjoy your day! We LOVE you!!
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